TEXAS BORN,
SEMI-VIRGINIAN RAISED, MIDWESTERN AT HEART, AND EAST COASTIE CYNIC.
RESCUED BY A HUMBLE SERVANT IN ETERNITY AND HUMBLE MAN ON EARTH.
IMPERFECT BELIEVER. WIFE. COUNSELOR. WRITER. PHOTOGRAPHER.
infertility warrior.
hello friend
It's so good to meet you! This whole idea of beholding is something that I'm so, SO passionate about. It's something I started doing when I graduated college--among all the stress and life's many transitions, I developed a discipline
to sit, wait, and behold Jesus' presence in my life.
Today, I'm a beholder of all things: good, bad, mundane, exciting, ordinary.
I have this thing where I love deeply while forever embracing my Father's deep love for me. Don't be surprised if while you're here, you meet my intense passion for an immeasurable God. He fills my heart with hope when my mind argues with doubt.
Through the years, I've been rescued time and time again by His grace from a never ending battle with anxiety, depression. and even infertility. I've watched Him work through faith, family, ministry, marriage, and soon parenthood. Through the heavy and bottomless journey, I've been reminded that beholding Him unveils the good that is buried among the ache of a fallen world.
I started this blog as a 23 year old in need of inspiration of God's love. It soon became a therapy where I could process my passion among joys and sorrows, heartaches and happiness, triumphs and failures. Forever since, I've been steadfast to discern God's will.
I was born to Robert and Mary- the main characters in the greatest love story ever written. 29 year later, I tried to write my own love story when I married the love of my life (Trey) after years and years of countless prayers and trust and only eleven months of dating. I’ve learned that devotion, commitment, and humility to another person are the greatest gifts one could give, which is why I’ve decided to let God write our love story too instead of taking the credit for it! I write a lot about Trey so you should probably get to know him too. He's my whole world; constantly sprinkling me (and others) with kindness and forgiveness when I forget how to. Somewhere in the pages he found room for our 90 pound dog, Sasha bear and our twins (due March 2019).
In 2016, my father was diagnosed with terminal cancer and with that Trey and I made the second best decision of our lives. We sold our year old town home to build a bigger home in Fredericksburg, VA where we could spend every last second with my dad and to prepare to take care of my mom when his heaven day came. In 2017, Jesus won my dad's courageous battle. Not a day goes by that I don't thank him for the gift of life he gave me, never ceasing to teach me what it means to be God-fearing and honoring. It's because of him that I truly know how to behold with a faith that surpasses all knowledge and understanding.
My background is in student ministry where I worked for 10+ years. After an ugly but recovered burn out, I pursued a Masters degree in Counseling. Though I no longer "professionally" use either degree, I exercise the knowledge and education by continuing to advocate for those who need it most, friends and family included but I will forever remain youth driven and justice-seeking inspired.
For now, I home-make and memory-make over at Beholding You Photography. Both jobs have been the greatest gift allowing me to enjoy the gift of time with family; something that I will NEVER EVER take for granted.
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